Somebody wrote, “I think she’s wasted just handling the current portfolio”. It was hilarious ok. I just had to laugh. I’m wasted? Let me see the mail again. Gosh, it was soo funny it tickled me so much I had to laugh again. So, somebody thinks I’m wasted and wants me to handle more portfolios. So that, he can get somebody else to handle more than what that somebody already handles. It’s like building the lego, those loose blocks need to be adjoined and you quickly find the base to be tote up. There must not be any loose blocks, that’s the bottom line. Who cares about the wellbeing of the base. If it’s too heavy, it will collapse but it may not even collapse, so add on first.
It was hilarious, because, ok, I do find his points rather relevant. Of course, I don’t think I’m wasted. That’s a very sharp word to use! How could he? Some people are just luckier than the other. Face it, dude. Heheh. I just agree that yes, I’m having a good time on this island. Is it my fault? Again, of course, no! I’m just being lucky, that’s all. Anyway, with that forewarning, I know this is coming. Oh no, I shouldn’t be laughing. This is coming my way. I’m going back to the jungle. That’s scary ok. There’s nothing funny there. Ok, it still tickles me anyway.
Then, my boss came. Giving a kind of prelude. He’s so going there, I know. And yes, he did alright. In the midst of listening to him, my imagination intervenes. I’ll get that job from the recent interview and I’ll say yes to him and tender my resignation very soon after. How smart. “Shouldn’t be a problem I guess.”, and that came out from my mouth! Oh dear, slap me. The boss may think, oh, she’s so easy to maneuver, just sweet talk her and she’ll say yes.
Options? Ok, I’ll avoid him. I need to give a firm answer later and I must avoid him. I don’t want to go back to the dark scary jungle. I simply blurted out the other day, it was my imagination talking, really not me.
Then, something else popped. The boss called me and asked if I’m keen to lead one project. You are giving me this and that without any reward, how could I be keen? And how could I say not keen to you? I shilly shally on the phone and he asked again, my keenness. I have to say, well, I’m ok with it la. Come on, you know I’m not keen. Do I sound any keener to you? I guess it doesn’t matter to you anyway.
Now, which one is better? A project which the top gun is eyeing, because he has to, it directly affects his reputation in the eyes of his employer. Or get lost in the jungle, fighting the evil dinasours until exhaustion but nobody really bothers anyway. On the surface, that project promises better prospect. Of course, since a 3rd party will actually determine the project succeeds or fails, it is more challenging indeed. It is not easy, but, I guess the intricate challenge it holds still surpasses the taxing task in the jungle. I have an option now. I’ll choose the project over the jungle. If you want be to be effective, let me just handle the project. I can’t focus when there’s too many. Remember you say, you want be to be efficient, you really don’t want to burden me? Forget what I accidentally uttered that day. It was a mistake. Now that you ask me to handle this project, I am choosing to focus on one and make it successful. (What if it fails?). Why so negative. Think positive. I can do it. As long as you stop trying to put me back to the jungle, I’ll lead the project. Just leave me on this island. Don’t disturb please. Peace no war ok. 
